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I look like a real estate agent. Someone beautiful told me to make today better so I am going to try my best.

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Long text post update of my life

I can safely say that my depression is back at about 75%. My apartment is a mess and I had to lie to my mum about it today. I am kind of over all of the force positivity for the moment. I love telling people why I love them but I am just getting tired. I want to feel better and this has been an amazing stretch and possibly the longest I have stayed positive in my life. I’ve been missing my old life lately and things are just resurfacing. I have so many dating options: two at home in NH, one I work with and possibly one more I work with and someone I know from college. It feels quite empty. My upswing involved me being busy all of the time and I still consider myself super lucky to have the people in my life that I do. I am just tired and I took two days off for the beginning of august to be home in nh but I may just work through them, because I know with what would have been my 9 year anniversary coming up I am going to break soon. I have infinity people to interview at work this week which is nice because I like the hr staff and I like doing interviews with them but we need people bad and I don’t like weeding through bad candidates. I am just tired and I wish I were on vacation with someone who loves me making out near an ocean or body of water.

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Music

So darling heads send me links to spotify playlists please. I need music in my bones.

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I have not done prayer reflection since Friday and my mind has been all dirty today it feels like. I am going to tough through it but this is getting harder and harder to do. I miss touch.

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Colored my hair again and cut my bangs… The cutting was an awful idea.

Colored my hair again and cut my bangs… The cutting was an awful idea.

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This is what I do when I am bored. This is a sunset on my eyeballs.

feliciousity:

notwhatihadnmind:

Super awesome when someone talks about what a disgusting fatass they used to be and their “fat” weight is your current weight.

Story of my life

Even more awkward when a bunch of guys are discussing weight and the guy you like says how much he weighs and how he is his heaviest.. And you weigh more.

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Or homeless ?

Or homeless ?

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Today has been inexplicably boring at work. I don’t know if it’s because it’s summer or what but I have been falling asleep at my desk. Fasting is upsetting my acid reflux for realz. I have been coughing like a maniac for weeks. I sent bro one the letter I wrote on here a while ago as part of my nice things about other people initiative. I am disappointed in my self for wanting to just stop fasting now. I am enjoying the prayer aspect and reflecting on myself but I still fail to see how not eating and not having sex have anything to do with it. My not eating is not helping anyone who is hungry. I do want to do better for my world community but this is not accomplishing that. Maybe I’m just a little off today but I’m just so tired and my mouth tastes like battery acid.

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Heyyyy faces !!! Going to try and blonde a little more this weekend.

Heyyyy faces !!! Going to try and blonde a little more this weekend.